So, just to ensure my light was on, I sat down and opened up Blogger. Nothing. No sarcasm. No wit. No wise counsel. Just me blinking at a white page wondering "what now?". And then I spied my favorite quote book: The Book of Positive Quotations 2nd Edition; Compiled and Arranged by John Cook; Edited by Steve Deger and Leslie Ann Gibson. Inspiration!
I closed my eyes, opened to a random page, opened my eyes and chose the first quote I saw:
There are people who are always anticipating trouble, and in this way they manage to enjoy many sorrows that never really happen. ~Josh Billings
When it seemed my firstborn would never stop crying, and my first attempt to bathe him resulted in his near-drowning, I feared he would never grow up, and if he did somehow manage to survive my inept parenting, he would be scarred for life; I could not fathom the handsome, responsible young man he would grow to be, or the pride and joy I would know the day he proudly accepted his high school diploma, and a year later, bought his first home.
When it started to rain the weekend I attended my first country music festival I fretted over getting wet, and tracking mud in to my bed roll; shivering in a downpour huddled under an umbrella fashioned from garbage bags and coat hangers; it never occurred to me I'd meet my future husband and get soundly kissed in the rain while Ian Tyson crooned on stage.
When said husband accepted a promotion and transfer to a new city I wondered how I'd manage the house and kids until our home sold and we moved to join him; I never imagined my youngest boys would step up to the challenge and take over many new responsibilities with barely a peep of protest.
When my daughter moved out with her fiance I worried that I would never see her, and that I would lose the special bond we had developed being the only females in a sea of testosterone; I underestimated the strength of that bond and the fresh perspectives and people we bring to our evolving relationship, experience and experiences, unexpected challenges and familiar habits; wisdom and wonder, presumption and philosophical debate; new emotions and memories laid down over the old, like layers of bonded steel, strong, durable, everlasting; I feared losing my baby girl, but when I turned around, a beautiful, smart, and compassionate young woman was there to help me grieve.
When nothing is sure, everything is possible. ~Margaret Drabble